Him & I

What can I say? I've got it bad.
No, not that you fool.
I've fallen for a guy and I don't know where it came from.

Ever since I met him, we've been experiencing something that I didn't think was going to be possible for me again. I actually care for some again to be in my life romantically and it feels great. Ricky and I share something, something I haven't felt in a long time. It's fun, exciting and scary all at the same time. And for once, I've fallen for someone who feels the same for me. Yes, I've had my fair share of crushes and inopportune dating scenarios, but this one - this one right here is one I am into. All the way.

Getting to know someone again, like this, after a long time of not wanting to be around romance or wanting to have a boyfriend can be scary just as easy. I wish that this will grow into something stupendous and loving. We've been going out for only a short while (3 months), but it feels longer and it feels natural. We see each other alot during the week. And I can't get enough of him. He's sweet, funny, sarcastic, smart, adorable and romantic. Yeah we bicker, but it's a fun bicker. It's how we communitcate at times. Other times, we just chill and hang out and laugh. Yeah we may not be into the same things. His interest are complete opposite of mine. That sometimes can be difficult when I geek out, but I don't care.

We think about the future. Our lives together. What we'd like to accomplish. Our dreams and goals. All without pushing too hard and too fast. We give each other our space (or at least we're learning too now.) I've taken Gay Speed Dating 101 and known people in my life who's taken it as well. I am learning from my mistakes. I feel that's a good thing. Slow and steady wins the race. Patience is a virtue. Do or do not. There is no try. (Thanks Yoda!)

As all couples do, we have our moments of tough times, but it hasn't been that serious. Mostly misunderstandings, because we're still "new" to this. New to us. Getting to know each other can be fun and difficult, because as human, personalities tend to be different. Good meshing isn't always the result. However, we overcome and we beat the odds. That's why I like him. We talk and communicate. He's vested in me feelings he wants to explore and feelings he's never had, but always wanted. He wants this to be the best relationship ever for him and so do I.

So yeah, I got it bad. I've fallen for him big time.

Him & I. We're good and we can only get better.

Here's to you Ricky.